Loving myself...

I find it ironic that today's post for the Valentine's Day linkup is about loving yourself, because that's something I've struggled with for a while now. I live by the phrase, "if you want something right you have to do it yourself". I like getting things done, and I like to be in control. The problem is, I've always been a perfectionist. And eventually I became 'not good enough' for the high standards I had set for myself. I won't go into much detail, because I can't exactly keep track of who reads this and there are things that I'd rather not spread around the Internet. But just know that it's become very hard to love myself. I'm always trying to get better instead of being happy with who I am. And wanting to improve yourself is fine, I'm not saying that's wrong. But it's become unhealthy for me. I'm trying to change my mindset, and currently struggling in the fight of my life. I don't want to be unhappy. I just want to love myself. It's just not easy. So I've taken to collecting some inspiration to replace the "thinspiration" I had been collecting. Here are a few of my favs:

{A small part of me really wants this one as a tattoo}

All of that being said, my favorite feature is my eyes. They've never changed my entire life, and they're always the first thing people comment on. They give me a great innocent look, and give away my emotions even when I'm trying to hide them. No matter how tired I am, or how fat I think I look, or how badly I think I'm doing in life, my eyes are always the same. They always stare back at me in the mirror with the same look. They hold back tears and burn with anger. They sparkle when I'm happy, and I love them.

All bundled up in Colorado

At a Stars game with the boy who always makes me feel beautiful

(plus aren't his baby blues gorgeous? i'm so jealous haha)

It might be a long journey. I might struggle my whole life. But I'm not going to give in. I'm too strong for that. I will learn to love myself. <3